I posted this in response to a snarky thread from some DPS today:
All I've ever wanted to do is heal you. Really, from the time I was level 20 on my first character - a Priest - I knew that what I wanted most in the world was to heal you. I healed you through Burning Crusade. I healed you through Wrath. I forced myself to get over the frustration of watching you die repeatedly to Lich King because you wouldn't wait for the main tank to get Aggro after 4.0, or you died to the shamblers because the Hunters were slow on the Tranq Shot - frustration because I felt guilty for not being able to save you, even though I knew objectively that it wasn't possible.
Now my mana is bad, and my gear is shit, and my Haste is gone, and I feel completely helpless. And you're not helping me. I ask for help, over and over - please CC, please slow down, I need to drink, I'm OOM - and what I get in return is bitched out, cussed out, and called names. I get told I'm bad because you stood in the fire. I get asked "Where were the healz?!" when I had no mana to spend on you because I was so busy just trying to keep up with the massive damage. I get told to shut the fuck up, learn to play. And all I'm trying to do is keep my head above water and you alive.
Because I really would give just about anything to keep you alive, even if you do stand in fire, and cuss me out, and treat me like shit. I want to do well, I want to succeed. But I can't do it alone, and many of you don't seem to understand that. You don't seem to understand what it's like to watch that bar go down, knowing there is nothing you can do to stop it because you have nothing left to give. You don't seem to understand that I take every one of your deaths personally, and part of me will always see it as my fault - even if, objectively, I know it's not.
I dread heroics. I dread pugs. I dread even guild runs, because I'm just not strong enough to carry any of you through it, and few of you seem inclined to actually help me out. The ones who do are greatly appreciated by me, because it's nice to know that at least one person has my back. But so many of you think I'm stupid when I ask for CC, when I have to drink after every pull, when I go OOM because my heals don't hit fast or hard enough, and cost too much mana.
So I do my part, and I spend my precious mana on your Heroism, on the CC that I can provide, on the interrupts you don't seem inclined to do. I do it because I want to succeed. I do it because I care about you living or dying. I do it because I want you to know that I have your back. But I'm getting really tired. And I'm getting really discouraged. And I'm wondering if it's even worth struggling at this point. I'm tired of being verbally abused. I'm tired of being treated like shit. I'm tired of feeling like a failure and I don't know how to fix it.
You are the only ones who can change this situation. I know there are a lot of uppity tanks and healers out there, but you need to remember that there are a lot of healers just like me - who love our DPS and tanks, even if they're just pugs, and don't want to see anyone die. Please remember that when we're asking you to CC, we're begging you for help because we can't do this by ourselves. We need your help, we can't succeed unless we work together.
The next time you see a healer getting upset in an instance, maybe stop and think for a moment that it may just be that the last three dungeons they were in, they were verbally abused, called names, and possibly even vote kicked because of DPS and tanks who just couldn't be bothered to help them out. Maybe that's why they're short, irritable, and cranky. Maybe they just need to know that someone out there actually considers them a human being and is willing to work with them for once.
Just a thought.
This isn't fucking Survivor. We aren't a tribe.
If I won't put up with an in-character owner trying to control my OOC life, what makes you think I'll put up with you
trying to do that?
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