I have been really hesitant to post on here because of my own personal beliefs on death and the internet and such..
All things considered I guess it may be helpful or perhaps even kind to acknowledge one of my best SL friends..
It's difficult to judge one person's life without drawing comparisons to one's own existence and in doing so find faults that are painful to accept within yourself..
Allison is a person who made it very easy to see how we could be better people..
I owned one of her alts in game for a long long time, which was a fantastic experience, she and I got along IC greatly and I could not help but feel comfortable dealing with her.. The demands for Roleplay were always tempered by the wish to ensure that those she roleplayed with felt something..
She never was overbearing with me, never too needy or too dramatic.. Instead doing her task be it working with others on her Alison Alt or building a sim, perhaps working as a free woman..
But she found the strength to ensure that she could find time to say hi, or drop in, never just simply content to bounce in and out without acknowledging that she knew you were there..
Looking back at that, I wish I had been more grateful, because I wasn't and now it's too late to change that..
Even after I knew she had gotten sick, even when I heard it in her voice, even when I stopped seeing her log in, I didn't take the time to make sure I said "HI" back..
So yes I look back at the memories of Alison and I compare those memories to my actions I rightfully find myself Lacking..
I won't make declarations and empty promises, because the gesture is disingenuous but I will say that I hope that the next time someone is as good as Alison was, that I remember and take action to show them how appreciated they are before they are gone from this world..
I'm not happy unless you're not happy..